Caught Up In Circles, Confusion is Nothing New

Sometimes, I wonder what I'm doing here. No, not on Earth, but on Blogger. When I first started this blog in April of 2008, it was such a new concept to me. It was mostly just for fun and to dip my toe into the waters and get involved in the world of erotica writing. But, over time, my blog has turned into more of a obligation than something I do for fun any more. I'm not entirely sure why that is, but that is how it feels.

I mean, I really don't give my blog that much attention. I view it as something of a necessity, something that I need to have as a writer. I use this blog as a place to announce what is going on with my writing, to keep people informed and every now and then, write something serious. But, I've never taken the whole thing very seriously, mostly because I don't get a lot of traffic. Very little in fact, at least by my standards.

Now, is my lack of traffic down to the fact that I don't post enough? Don't leave enough comments on other people's blogs? Or am I just not that interesting? Maybe it is all of those things, or none of them, but I keep plugging along with this blog, trying to find the value in it.

Is there something more I should be writing, should I lay my soul bare? Would it make a difference? I'm not sure. Maybe, maybe not. But, either way, I'm not ready to let go of it yet, but if I'm being honest, I'm just not sure what I want it to be. Maybe those things will come to me, but right now I just have no idea.

So, I'll stick with what I know. My story, House Call, is in the new book Homo Thugs, now available from STARbooks Press. Oh, and of course, the one thing I am sure of is the Man Candy. It's not going anywhere.

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