Tuesday, December 31, 2013

It's Getting Cold All Over Again


Yes, it's that time of year again. The time where we reflect back on the 12 months that was and take stock. Even though New Year's resolutions rarely work out, it's still really fun to chart a new course for a new year. A fresh start, a new beginning. There's just something so magical about the concept. Even if the execution doesn't always work out the way we plan.

This year was full of amazing things for me. Trying to remember them all was a bit of a challenge. And, I'm almost positive I'm forgetting something. But, I also know that this year was tough on many people around me and they will be happy to see the back of 2013. Their fresh start is one of hope and promise of what the future will bring. Mine includes that as well, but I am also able to look back at this year with a bit more fondness.

As I made the list of things I did this year, it turned out to be varied and awesome and I'm really proud of it. Here it is, in no particular order, except for the 1st one, which was obviously the biggest. And, here's to an amazing start to 2014.

My year (in review)

  • Sold our house and moved into a one bedroom apartment downtown
  • Tried Stand Up Paddleboarding for the 1st time and loved it!
  • Learned to swim
  • Kayaked four times
  • Did a cartwheel and a handstand for the first time since I was a kid
  • Lost 100+ pounds (technically started in 2012, but got to the finish line in 2013)
  • Took a pole dancing class
  • Won my fantasy football league championship!
  • Got into a single digit jean size for the 1st time since high school/early college
  • Swam a mile in the pool, a bunch of times!
  • Did a mud run
  • Saw 5 concerts, including Texas is the Reason on their farewell tour
  • Took a rowing class
  • Attempted to swim in open water
  • Bought dresses and pantyhose for 1st time in 10 years
  • Had 21 things published this year: 6 novellas and 15 short stories 

So, all in all, not a bad little year. I can't wait to see what 2014 has in store for me.
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Saturday, December 28, 2013

Beside the Victory, That's Her Destiny



As if I needed any real reason to post this picture, I actually have one. Go right here, to this site, and comment for a chance to win a copy of my book, Number One Pick. I'm giving it away because I won my fantasy football league!!! I completed the most decorated season in our league's history. So, attention had to be paid. Time is limited, so hurry! And, good luck!

**Winners have been announced for my free books. So, if you commented, check here to see if you won!!
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Tuesday, November 5, 2013

I Was Too Weak to Give In, Too Strong to Lose


In honor of my fantasy football team scoring my league's all time high score (162!!!!), it's Man Candy Tuesday. With a bit of a bonus....
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Wednesday, October 30, 2013

Be Yourself, Man, Be Proud of Who you Are

I've had a few run-ins recently with people who, while probably not being intentionally malicious, have shit on what I do. It's not the first time this kind of thing has happened. I realize that what I do isn't exactly like what most people do. I'm extremely lucky that I'm in a position where I can do what I love. Most people, for whatever reason, aren't so fortunate. While I'm still a bit reticent to write this post, I felt it was something I needed to do.

Since early 2008, when I packed away the day job, I've had 131 individual pieces of fiction published. (with reprints, that number is even higher) That includes appearances in 110+ anthologies, 16 novellas/novels, a few websites and three magazine appearances. Not too shabby, especially when I thought this whole writing thing would never amount to much. I'm so incredibly glad that I was wrong.

I keep tabs on my publication numbers, but I rarely crow about them. I don't really feel comfortable constantly reminding people of how many times I've been published. It always feels like bragging, and not in a good way. I'm jealous of people who view the whole process of publicizing their successes as nothing more than smart marketing. I wish I could think of it that way. And, I do...to a point. The rest always feels like patting myself on the back a little too hard. Which I don't like to do, lest other people think I'm a self-centered twit only concerned with Twitter followers and 'exposure'.

I came to realize recently that this reluctance is a big part of the problem. How can I expect other people to take what I do seriously when I downplay my own accomplishments all the time? I've actually caught myself saying out loud when people are impressed by my job, "It's really no big deal". Who fucking says that? Especially when it's a lie. Because, it is a big deal. A really big fucking deal if I do say so myself. Maybe if I was a little more 'shout it from the rooftops' about my writing, other people would be too. As it stands, my biggest champion isn't me...it's my mother-in-law, who tells everyone (and I do mean everyone) about her porn writing daughter-in-law.

That should be me telling everyone that, loud and proud. But, most times I'm shrugging when someone else is mentioning it, downplaying it all because on some level I'm still afraid people are going to judge or be offended. The funny part is, I have yet to meet anyone who has been offended. Not truly, anyway. I mean, sure, I've gotten the quizzical looks followed by "why?" when I reveal what I do for a living, especially when it comes up that I write primarily M/M fiction. As if I need some huge, existential reason. How about because I think it's freaking HOT!? And, if the evidence is to be believed, I'm at least fairly good at it. (once again, can't bring myself to say freaking amazing, even though from time to time, I think it's true) I'm sure there are people in my life who would be offended, but I can't really worry too much about that. At this point, it's really their problem, not mine.

I'm not writing this to fish for compliments or to get other people to pat me on the back. I'm really writing it to try and work out why I can't toot my own horn a little more. I mean, like I said before, if I act like what I do is insignificant, I'm sending the signal to other people that it is. And, that has to change. And, according to psychology stuff I've read on the Internet, acknowledging your problem is the first step to fixing it, so here it is.

My name is Heidi and I don't tell people I write smut with enough pride. Whew, that felt good. Now, on to step two....
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Monday, October 21, 2013

Are You Hiding From Me?




It's been brought to my attention that I haven't been blogging nearly enough. Which is true. So, I figured I'd start out with something simple, something that didn't require a lot of effort on my part. Because, I've been really hella lazy when it comes to my blog. Not really sure why that is, but maybe it's time to remedy that. So, to that end, I decided to bring out some new Man Candy. I'm not sure this is the blog post my friend Jesse had in mind, but hey, it's a start, right? As some of you know, I'm a huge fan of swimming. This picture is part of the reason why.
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Thursday, September 5, 2013

But Where do We Begin Now That You’re Back From the Dead?

Our new place!
Yes, where do we begin? It's been over a month since my last blog post. I could make excuses, blaming it all on the move and my two projects due by September 1st. Actually, those sound like good reasons, because they are my reasons. It was a hectic month, packing, cleaning, schlepping boxes to and fro, and trying to squeeze in time to finish two manuscripts, each of 15k plus. But, I managed to do it all.

After the dust settled, I decided to take a few days to clear my head, and blogging didn't factor into the equation. I visited the Mothership, watched crazy amounts of TJ Hooker reruns and basically vegged out. But, now I'm back to work. My new digs have been very conducive to the creative process. As I type this, I'm at an adorable little coffee shop, where I did most of the writing I've done in the last few weeks. I can walk to two very nice places, with free Wi-Fi and delicious iced coffees.

I also walk to my bank, to the YWCA to swim and to several very awesome eateries and bars. The farmer's market is open Tuesday, Thursday and Saturday and is half a block from my new apartment. In short, I'm relishing the city living, as minor-league as our city may be. There's a lot to be said for not having to drive. It's something I hope to have at our next stop, wherever that may be.

Anyway, so that's where my lost month went. I'll have some exciting news to post soon, as well as more Man Candy. So, stay tuned. Hopefully, there will be no more rabbit holes for me to fall down. At least not anytime soon.
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Sunday, August 4, 2013

Monday, June 24, 2013

It's a Good Time for Superman To Lift the Sun Into the Sky

 
 
As if there was anyone else to choose for Man Candy Monday this week. Henry Cavill.......Mmmmmmmm......
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